Tuesday, October 11, 2011

Oh how I wish you could be a fly on the wall of my classroom...

As you watch from the wall you may think,  "Oh, my!  I never knew Bethany could loose her temper!  I thought she was always kind and loving with only cozy comfort spilling from her heart"

It is true - I can be kind and loving.  And I often am in the classroom.  But please.  I am writing this blog fresh after coming off of a day where the "time-out" chair was the busiest spot in the house. 

With that said, I love my job.  I do.  I love that it pushes me to grow-up in really important ways. 

Such as learning to love a child by being firm instead of always being soft. 
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Don't take a child's tantrum personal, just because they cry when I put them in time out does not mean they hate me.  And even if they do hate me for the moment, I am learning they will always come give me a hug when they leave at the end of the day.
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I'm learning how to be a leader of other adults who are both older and younger than I.  The value of encouragement is priceless.  The necessity of being firm at times (there's that word again).  Clear communication takes time...and grace is a must! 
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PRAY!  Prayer makes walking in the Spirit much more personal.  I can tell the days where I've spent time in prayer and others are praying for me, and the days where I am not quite as "prayed up".  The battles are always bigger with out prayer. 

Looking back on this scattered post, I can see me trying to say...sometimes I don't like my job.  Some days I want to quit.  I get frustrated with something about everyday.  But in my weakness I can see the strength of the Lord maturing and humbling me.  It's a beautiful feeling to be in the Potter's hands, even when He is firm.  I see the grace of the Lord being poured out over my life; and I praise Him for what He is doing!

And finally...in honor of the name of my blog: below is the book I have been poring over the past couple weeks.

Love,
Miss Bethany

btw.  I have parent-teacher conferences next week...what?!  :) 

   

Monday, September 26, 2011

baghhhhh!  I know, I know... I've been neglecting my blog.  I tried to sum up the strength to write, just to settle back down into my bed and fall asleep.

Tonight is the first night I can honestly say I feel like I have the energy and desire to write.

The job has been more responsibility than I first presumed.  Which therefore means I've felt like I've been behind since I started.  I'm beginning to catch up.  :)

Highlights:

  1. Cute kids in my face all day long - seriously.  They are so hilarious!
  2. Getting to mold and shape the future of America....ok...so I don't feel like I'm doing this yet.  But I've read teachers books since beginning this job and that's what they tell me I'm doing. 
  3. Getting to grow in many areas I never knew I had such as; developing creative lessons every day!
  4. My commute (thanks to my new move) is seriously only 1.5 minutes.  Today I ran home from work during my break and tweaked my outfit.
  5. The people I work with continually caring for me, giving me grace and helping me grow!  I am SO thankful for the team of teachers I work with, and even the other staff at Lydia.  It's been a beautiful community to be apart of.  
That's all for now.  Because I know I'm not suppose to post pictures of the kids due to legal purposes...here's a vague picture of us at the firehouse.  



Love!

Saturday, September 10, 2011

A New Season




As the leaves are changing colors, I can't help but get excited for the lovely season of fall!  I've pulled out my favorite boots, dug out my fleece and found my favorite hoodie.  Bring it on. 

With the change of season comes many changes in my personal life.  I'm tooo excited to tell you about.

During my time in China I was able to spend a lot of time praying about the future.  There were two things on my heart; working in a daycare or an after school program and staying in Chicago.  I especially couldn't shake the after school program. 

So, once I returned to the States and began looking for a job it was natural for me to contact my friend at a preschool.  She responded that some jobs may be opening up "soon", in the mean time come and volunteer. 

So I did.

For three months.

Three months of "It looks like a job will be opening up soon...I'll know more information in two weeks...At the end of the month...etc."
It was a time where the Lord continually reminded me to "Wait". There were other job opportunities close to family that were VERY tempting. They seemed like a great fit. But I really felt the Lord telling me to stay in Chicago.



This is what I liked about the preschool.  First, it's an old organization (Lydia Home) in the city of Chicago that has a heart for those who are in a hard spot.  There are a lot of people there that are "rough around the edges".  I like that.  I found myself thinking and wondering about some of the kids when I was not volunteering.

Side note...one thing I struggle with in my walk with God is doubt.  I doubt that He will provide.  I doubt that He is enough.  I doubt...so I try to control how I will be provided for.  I try to meet needs on my own.  This time of waiting was one filled with prayers.  Wrestling.  And the Lord stripping me of things I found identity in (job, car, house...).  Throughout this time the Lord was faithfully providing and providing and providing in big and small ways everyday.  My comfort in doubt was being shaken. 

Last Friday when I walked into volunteer at the preschool I was pulled into the directors office.  She asked "How would you like to run our after-school program?  Our current teacher just resigned and we want you to take her spot.  We need you to work in the preschool in the mornings and then take care of the after-schoolers in the afternoon.  What do you think?"

What did I think?! 

I think that God knows abundantly more what I need and provides specifically for each one of us children. 

That's what I think.

After an overwhelming day of seeing the Lord provide I came home that evening and checked my email:  "Bethany, I know you've been staying with us for awhile but due to some legalities you are going to need to find a new place to live by Sept. 30th" (paraphrase)

And the prayers went up as I sat feeling slightly deflated.  

And He answered.

As of yesterday I've been approved to live in a house owned by Lydia.  The house is right next to Lydia.  It's a beautiful house, with three other single girls who love the Lord and also work at Lydia.  Not only do I now have a place to live, but my hour plus commute has just been cut to about two minutes. 

Tears.

I'm humbled.

As I look over the past three months I've seen God do a mighty work in my life.  I'm excited to see what will happen in this new season.  As this new season starts though, I do have a request from you.  Lydia pulls in people from all walks of life.  It is a ministry that serves a very diverse population.  There is a lot of brokenness, sin, and hurt within the people and the children at Lydia.  There is a very heavy spiritual presence about the work that is being done. 

I ask for your prayers.  I want Lydia, and my role as a teacher to be covered in prayer.  There is a lot of darkness.  I pray for light. 

As the Lord has led me through these last three months He continues to bring me back to Psalm 100.  It says "Acknowledge that the Lord is God; He made us and we are His,  His people, the flock He tends". 

This is what I pray for.  The Lord will be acknowledged as God.  I will live in faith, and in the power of the gospel with humility knowing that this work is not of me.

My heart (and eyes) are full as a type this.  I praise the Lord for his goodness!  His steadfast love is eternal, and His faithfulness is for all generations.

I pray that as the Lord brings me to mind, you will lift up what God is doing at Lydia. 

Monday, September 5, 2011

:) I'm So Excited!...

Tonight I'm happy because...
  1. I finished Robinson Crusoe today after a month of perserverance.
  2. I am at home in Deerfield tonight after a weekend away.
  3. Tomorrow I start...my new job.  :)  More to come!!!!
In my mind I'm wearing this shirt to my first official day of work tomorrow...

Sunday, September 4, 2011

Wisco. Love.

There are a lot of pictures in this post but after reviewing all the pics from my trip to the farm...I had a hard time making decisions. 

Hence the photo-documentary of my week in Wisco.  

View of the farm from the road.





Photo-shoot set sans persons.
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Dinner. Fresh from the garden.

What we found on our way home from exploring...

...an overgrown corn silo? Possibly.
 A romantical, adventurous moment? Most definitely.
Leo the frog.
He joins the conversations in the kitchen every evening at dark. 
He also works as pest control when bored with the conversations.
A very helpful frog to have around. 

Attempt at a self-portrait with new friend, Megan.

The proof of my conquered fear of taking down abandoned hornets nests.
Let's count them...1,2,3,4...too many to count!

Evening at the lake.

Cute child #1. 
Also a first time visitor of the farm.

Cute child #2.
Youngest resident of the farm.
 
Cuties #3 & #4.
Superman style. 
Also the farm superheros.


Um...
LOVE these guys!


Tuesday, August 30, 2011

The Farm

I'm back from the farm!  At what a lovely time it was...

Unfortunately, I do not have access to my camera right now.  So, I will give you my highlight in words...


  • Melted butter on warm raisin walnut bread.
  • Hanging out with 3 (and for a brief moment 4) super cool kids
  • Catching up with two dear, close friends
  • Listening to Sara Groves
  • Cleaning the chicken coop
  • Conquering my fear of (abandoned) hornet's nests
  • Washing my hair with castile soap and vinegar
  • Picking fresh cherry tomatoes and chocolate mint (yes. CHOCOLATE mint.  It's a plant)
  • Sunday church on the front row with the pastors family
And that my friends.   Is a brief glimpse of my WONDERFUL week on the farm.  

Tuesday, August 23, 2011

At The Farm

Dear friends & family:

For the next week I will be enjoying (suffering?) limited internet service at "the farm" in Wisconsin.  Please know I am not ignoring you.  I am just busy tending a garden, playing with my friends children, and drinking coffee talking late into the night.  Pictures will follow...But for now here is a generic tourist promo of my locale for you to enjoy.



From the land of friendship, weeping willows  & big red barns,

Bethany